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I feel that generally I’m a pretty weird/odd person. I talk to random corners or stains or marks on my wall. I like to jump three times up and down after I finish taking a shower. I once drove my friends to a place and suddenly had the urge to run a red light so I did, and just yelled out e transfer in a high pitched voice.

I get ideas that come from somewhere out of me and I just decide to act on them and they get me exactly where I’m supposed to be at in life. I don’t know if this is an issue or not but I believe when people interact with each other, they both exchange dialogue and ideas and they do so being in their own respective bodies and they learn about each other.

Sometimes I feel that Russel Pailaga is an identity/ego that interacts with individuals, and when people interact with me, it’s less one person absorbing information from another and vice versa, but I’m absorbing information from another person, and we’re both looking at/absorbing information from Russel Pailaga together. Instead of looking at each other, I’m looking at you when you exchange information with me and we’re both looking at Russel when he’s exchanging information with you.

I sometimes feel like an observer. Life is a journey not to be understood by others, but to understand yourself, but sometimes I feel that people discover me and they’re just as clueless about me as I am about myself.

written on: june 26, 2024 at 10:57 am