A newfound struggle

I’ve learned in the past to not struggle with third dimensional issues as much anymore, as I felt I’ve done a good amount of shadow work on myself over these last years. I don’t allow myself to get swept up by issues that might’ve been so incredibly difficult to unpack and navigate through. It simply doesn’t feel worth it anymore.

A new struggle that has formed (that I’ve learned to enjoy, as enjoying your struggles is one way to overcome them), lies somewhere on the fourth dimensional plane. In regard to my purpose and my higher self, I’ve learned that creating better art lies in emotion, as that is what gets us closer to what it means to being more human. It’s a paradoxical struggle, as a piece of the puzzle as to what it means to getting closer to ones higher self, might at first mean detaching yourself from your worldly desire (that’s how it was for me, at least), but creating something meaningful to your soul means having to feel these emotions that stem from said exact worldly desires, even harder and more deeply than ever.

I’ve been slowly acclimating myself to this new mental environment, and surrendering myself to the emotions I feel as it serves as a catalyst and the very foundation I use to base my writings on, but I find myself drowning in it, having difficulty actually living in the present.

But what even is the difference

written on: august 1, 2024 at 7:02 pm